My Children want to play

My children want to play.

They want to laugh and jump and sing and dance.

My children want to play.

Today I let go of all the I have to do's and I let my children play.

It is so easy to get caught up in the should's and have to's. It is so easy to run into trouble playing the "my kids are the greatest" game. I do not even think I mean to get into it. I start by saying how smart or funny or cute one of my children are and soon it turns into a ranking... My kid did this, well my kid did that two years ago now they are doing this, and that. My child is so funny, well mine makes my laugh all the time. It is crazy making created out of fear by all Moms to assure themselves that they are matching up to the same high level as their fellow Moms, extended family and peers. BUT are their peers telling the truth or is everyone inflating the good and down playing the negative to each Mom's advantage?

As a mother who homeschools, I find myself having more "fear" based days. Am I doing the right thing? Is this the BEST thing for my kids? Do they know enough, are they smart enough, are the being challenged enough, have I gotten them into enough extra activities? I am so much busier now as a homeschooler then I ever was as a Mom that sent her kids away to learn. I just struggle daily with making sure that I am doing the right thing. I constantly ask myself am I really doing this, am I enough?

Then I take a deep breath, I kiss and hug my kids. I am enough.

So today my kids want to play, and I am letting go and letting them play.

Maybe I will even play with them and just be alive in the moment.

Mama